| Howdy Ya'll! |
[Feb. 24th, 2009|02:12 pm] |
Hey everyone!
How are you doing?
Just out of random impulse I decided an update was necesary!
Besides, all the cool kids use livejournal, right??
So I figure those of you who don't know should. The Legend of Dot Dot Dot has an epic show coming up March 7th, and all support available should be in attendence. The bands playing besides the Legend include Cohen and the Ghost, With Apple, and the Lagniappe Dulcimer Society. Pretty neat huh?
I've been good for all those curious.
How is everyone? |
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| I hate feeling emotions out of character.. |
[Jul. 5th, 2008|01:01 am] |
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SO Yeah. I miss Ben. A lot. And that's like sweet and mooshy and out of character for me to admit. He does that to me.
He's been gone for like 3 weeks.
We were in the middle of filming something tooo.......... |
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| OHblah |
[Dec. 28th, 2007|03:15 pm] |
So I'm updating here, because I haven't in forever, and Laura misses it.
Also... Life's been nuts.
I have a Danish guy at my house.
I haven't had internet.. right now I am on dialup.. which means when Ben tries to call me in a bit, it won't work all too well.
Oh yeah that whole deal. The whooole deal.
So
I told Zack about Ben, and can I tell you how awesome Zachery Elbourne is? He completely understands. So uhh me and ben now.. yeah. Anywho.. It still hurts. That Zack could say he loves me for two years and not have anything to say to his parents when they force him to break up with me. It hurts worse that I know I'll miss him. Luckily we're cool as friends, as long as we have some seperation time for a bit.
But Ben's out of town.. and I want him to come home so we can hang out.
Anyone want to have a New Years Eve party? I think it sounds like a blast. So give me updates on that if interested.
It kinda feel slike everything is falling apart.. I can't wait to go back to Trey's house so I can get out of this mess. Or I can't wait until someone comes out here to hang out with me*hint hint*
How's everyone's lovely winter break?
Mine started out perfectly well. I spent the first night at Ben's house and the next two nights he was at my house. Then, he left and things kinda slid downhill... Like Danish guy can really stress you out. And my mom has wierd relationship issues far too complicated for me to even try to explain, so she's been stressed out and inher room most of the day, which leaves Daniel and Natalie for me to take care of. Then my brother Cody has been in town and he's a nightmare. And last night I threw my exstepbrother Kurtis into a wooden chair for joking about suicidal people. Its been loads of fun. And loads of wierd complicated stress... but my whole wierd deal has straightened itself out so I can worry about everything else going on around my house.
Don't you just love the Holidays?
But I'm soo happy, because Cody went home today. I still need Ben to come home. I need people to hang out with, so People need to tell me their plans for New Years stuff. |
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| UHh yeah |
[Nov. 2nd, 2007|03:42 pm] |
blehhh..
yeah.
uhuh.
but no
seriously! Haha. yeah I don't know.
do you? |
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| yum.. |
[Oct. 8th, 2007|07:46 pm] |
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8 scoops of icecream between three people.. yummm.. |
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| Much better. |
[Oct. 1st, 2007|03:43 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | Arcade Fire- Neighborhood #2 | ] |
So last night I was crying my eyes out. I was trying to keep from doing that in drama and at lunch, too.
I am sick with a cold too.. that didn't help at alllll! SO I cry and have to blow my nose even more.
but I came home and got the most amazing email I have ever gotten in answer to a question I asked last night, during my anger and frustration and sadness at the world. I asked him why he loves me.. and I got the response I don't know. so I told him he better think about it.
So in reply the email.
Its a list of like 46 reasons why he loves me...
It made me cry. Then smile. Then giggle. Then cry some more. Then call Ben. Then smile again. I think he knows what he's getting himself into now.
Now I can move on and worry about getting rid of this cold of nastiness! |
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| okay |
[Sep. 23rd, 2007|08:18 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | Odalisque- the Decemberists | ] |
So I saw my zack today. that was nice.
Uhh me and Ben hung out yesterday. That's awesometastic. We played computer pinball and edited and played wii and wrote a script for his english project and skanked and fasted and breakfasted. It was lots of fun.
He also decided that, since we both plan on getting degrees in film, we're going to become famous musicians. which is awesome. I approve.
Uhh the chicken at outback tastes like steak.. and I don't like steak.
I've decided that one day I will have lots of pets, because walking through petsmart on adoption day makes me sad, when I can't take anyone home.
I like Zack. haha. two years.. wowzas. |
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| Priorities.. |
[Sep. 17th, 2007|03:48 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | "The Animals Were Gone" Damien Rice | ] |
Mine are screwed up.
I almost convinced myself saturday that I shouldn't exist.. that was lovely.
And people keep on having to drag me back, which makes me feel worse.
ANd maybe I just realized the maybe today, maybe it wasn't, that I get the best joy out of being with people and influencing them.. haha.. wierd.. anyway.
And for the first time today I felt passionate about learning how to play music. It was odd.. dunno.
Just throwing stuff out there that may or not be necesarily true. wierd.I'm so whiney and annoying.. haha.
I feel like no one has any time for me.
That's no cool. I know they have no choice. I just wish my priorities were as good as theirs.
I wish I knew what I wanted as much as they do.And I blame it on them when I don't get to see them. BUt its not thier fault. And I'm dumb.Bah.
whiney stuff.
but talk like a pirate day is the 19th.
tahts pretty spiffy.
urg.. job huntings a bitch. |
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| Movies |
[Sep. 10th, 2007|07:12 pm] |
I want to see "Be Kind Rewind".. it looks sooo amazing.
And I have yet to see "Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind"
which also looks awesome. I ahven't seen Pans Labrynth yet.
and lots of others. |
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| oksies.. |
[Aug. 29th, 2007|06:00 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | Mates of State- they're so cool. | ] |
So got the awesome birthday gift of 56 cds, but am only allowed to listen to two a day.
Ben is so smart.
I'm doing homework this year. thats a huge shock.
I'm trying for good grades this year.. might be a bit late but oh well..
I'm enjoying this year thus far.. its a nice challenge.
So on the yesternight was my birthday party, so my mom and Daneman, and my little brother and sister, and my franke!!
MY FRANKE!! I blub her.
And ben was there and Brett and Trey. and it was pleasant. We had Jamaican food. Its pretty tasty.Then, theres this old jamaican woman there that I love. She's so amazing. SHe had 11 kids and has 17 grandkids. and she just a sweet old lady that tells you to be thankful for everything you have and such pleasant thoughts. She's nice. |
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| Darn Christmas music cds! And window media player!! |
[Aug. 26th, 2007|07:19 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | The Sugarcubes-Bjork's old band, they're pretty spiffy!! | ] |
You may ask me why I have christmas music issues in August... and don't ask me why I'm using windows media player.
actually I'll tell you. Because I don't feel like downloading any other type of media player and I just got Sufjan Stevens christmas music... but since its like eps, Zack put three of them on 1 cd.. so its not letting me seperate it.
that is frustrating, but oh well.. I don't think I'll wonder what cd it is.but yeah I really should be reading summer reading... but I'm not.. because I'm lame and a slacker. |
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| bleg.. |
[Aug. 21st, 2007|07:55 pm] |
soo tired.. may sleep.. need to call zack.. need physics homework help.
bleehhhhhhhhh............. |
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| RAWWR! |
[Aug. 20th, 2007|06:02 pm] |
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I just interviewed a politician!! |
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| bleg.. |
[Aug. 14th, 2007|07:33 pm] |
I'm one of those people that just shouldn't grow up. I'm going to be a horrible bitter person with a wierd sense of humor and a love for the arts. SO that'll just make me wierd. Unless I'm rich, then I'd be eccentric. And then I'd have this happy crazy moments, where people look at me and say "She's too old for that."
SO I just shouldn't grow up.
I dress too funny to grow up.
I talk too wierd to grow up.
I duno just everything's just piling on. ANd I'm expected to do soo much and such. Then, I dunno. Just some situations make me feel older. And I know, I'm immature as most seniors get. I know people probably talk about me saying ooh she's kinda crazy. And I knwo I'm pretty young for a senior anyway.
But things make me feel old. or like I should be old.
And then there's this huuuge conflicting tension thing with my mom, where she wants to treat me like a baby forever over strange things then throw me out into the wild without a clue to do on others.
And I dunno. Zack wants me to start going back to church.. I'm kinda afraid ot admit that maybe he might be right, just because I know my friends will criticize and ask me why am I letting him change me, but I'm not. JUst because he has the right idea on something doesn't mean he's changing me.
And living with Trey's family is nice. They're stable. I don't have to watch kids all the time, my homework gets done or mostly done. I'm happier. I chronically sleepwalk, but I don't really know why. And its only when I'm at trey's house.
Mom doesn't want me to make bad desicions and learn from them, she'd rather make all my desicions for live for me.
I need to find a ride for school tommorrow.
I want a popcicle really badly. Like horribly Its not even funny. Well, yeah I guess it sort of is. but not. But maybe I dunno.
I need to finish reading this book of infinite nastiness... |
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| ok.. |
[Aug. 13th, 2007|07:23 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | Beulah- "The Night is day turned inside out" | ] |
SO I missed mckinley more than I though I was hiding I did.. I ran up and hugged dr. sibley today.. It was nice to be in my drama room again.. haha.
They changed my schedule. Put me in what I believe to be a nonexistant study hall, took me out of american cinema...: ( This is so I can have an english and graduate...
Then, Brett wouldn't go for a walk with me.
Hey denice, you wanna drive me home tomorrow??? |
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| sometimes... |
[Jul. 29th, 2007|09:48 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | The White Stripes. | ] |
I pretty much think I'm mental.
Tried waking up trey this afternoon. I talked on and on and on, while his semiunconcious bodylayed there on the futon, about vegitables. Well first I came in eating tuna. the talked about grain. Then I talked about vegitables.. Then I kinda laughed histerically and made funny noises.. then laughed some more. I don't really know why. I just get into this laughing fits where everything is funny. And I don't even have to be on drugs for it to happen.
bleg.. I hope I zack tomorrow. except I'm not able to get a hold of him today at all. I think that's extremely lame. Life's wierdly changing in wierd ways. just in general. basically. sometimes.
I've been reading This Side of Paradise. Its pretty awesome. I'd recomend it. except I'm almost halfway through so I guess I'll confirm that recommendation after I've finished it.
bleg.........basically.. actually... sometimes.... always............ |
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| man.. |
[Jul. 25th, 2007|09:35 pm] |
I really gotta learn to stop thinking when I'm half asleep.
it doesn't work so well. I say dumb things.
SO our air conditioning was broken and had been leaking for a bout a month.
We first discovered it was leaking early on and put a pan underneath it to catch where we thought was the only place the water was leaking from.
The air conditioning thing happens to be near my room.
I woke up to try to clean my room this morning. I found that clothes in the floor of my closet were wet, mildewy, and moldy, from the air conditioning leaking. Mommy made me throw them away.
but we went ot this cool thrift store. Like totally awesome. Its so tiny and full of junk. ANd its sooooo cheap, even for a thrift store. Like $.50 shirts and stuff. Its soo cool. Its just you really need to learn how to dig to find anything good in this store. because there was a lot of junk. So I got some clothes today.
And then we went to Target(or TAhget as my little sister would say because she's now gained a Boston accent for like no reason. We know no one from Boston. She's never been to Boston. Yet she's all of te sudden for no reason talking like she's from there. the other night she said Dahk.) and mommy bought me a mop. Its nice. I believe it to be my magical mage's staff. I wanted a more complicated one, but made a compromise with my mom and got one that still scrubs. So the floor is shiny.
man.. I need some sherbert.
and a movie.
lists of cd's to get a hold of to listen to:
Damien Rice-9
Anything by Elliott Smith
Modest Mouse- Lonesome Crowded West
Anything by Fiest
Badly Drawn Boy- Hour of the Wildebeast
The Decemberists- The last cd's that I lost after Katrina
Wilco- Sky Blue Sky, & Yankee Hotel Foxtrot
the new Interpol
anything by Lavender Diamond
anything by Rainer Maria
More Pavement
The Russian Futurists-Our Thickness
Of Montreal- Hissing fauna are you the destroyer?, Satanic Panic in the attic
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there's probably more. sorry the only way to organize my thoughts is to record them. |
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| Yeah sure whatever. |
[Jul. 25th, 2007|01:20 am] |
I feel so lame right about now. Like I don't even want to walk.
Went for a walk today. Looked up at the sky at the birds that got Zack and I in trouble. its a wierd way to put it.
I heard from him. He didn't die in a horrible plane crash. That's nice.
He's going to look at Colleges there. Lovely..
He goes Thursday to see Spamalot. I think I might disown him. But not really.
Monday when he came back it took every ounce of self control to keep myself from making a horribly awkward scene infront of my mom. I just wanted ot cling to him and not let him leave. I mean after a week in florida, with no way to talk to him. Then, monday I only spent like two hours with him. Then he left for New York. Some parts of me think its hopeless basically.
Atleast in New York he can still email me. I like that. Speaking from the stand point that today started at 12:01 am, Yesterday, we'll have been going out for a year and 10 months.
But most of those were spent apart. Yeha.. lots of parts of me thinks its hopeless.. its a hopeless situation. This is probably awkward for all reading. So to spare you the awkward. just don't comment.
On other news. I can't find my summer reading for Mandeville HIgh school. Its not on the school's website, nor is it on the St. Tammany Parish School Board website. But I did find this cool program for the arts. That's pretty nifty..
Dan's here. He's much better than the frenchman.It was great. we had an argument in the middle of a McDOnalds over whether he was a metrosexual or not. He's in denial that he likes musicals. Dan is most deffinitely the mexi-CAN.
I've desided that Watership Down will be the book that I am in a constant process of reading. Because I'll read a chapter or two and put it down for a few days. then realize I'm not farin the book at all read another chapter and repeat. I dunno its not that its boring or horrible or anything. Its just I don't have the attentionspan I guess.. but then again I have alreaady finished the Harry Potter book.. I duno what it is. I'll finish it eventually.
I want some baklava really badly right about now.
I think I need sleep my back's sore.
YOu wanna know what?
Next school year'll be strange. some many wierd things going on.
I think I'll constantly be readin to spare myself conversation with new people.
I have no issue with spider solitaire with one suit, but as soon as you add two I'm really crappy at it.
I want my gameboy back.
I need batteries. AA's.
I should go for a walk tomorrow.. or something.
I feel like I've gotten so out of shape.
hmm....................
hm.........
I miss living at Trey's house. |
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| book(non spoiler/exspoiler) |
[Jul. 23rd, 2007|10:39 pm] |
OH goooooooodness. I loved it.
I just finished it like fifteen minutes ago.
OH MY GOSH.
So sad in such a lovely way. I cried. not much though.
but yeah.
good book.
I am proud to say that I have read the series that is Harry Potter.
I am also proud to be the owner of two fabulous new jackets. ^_^
We had the party of the century on Saturday. I'm sunburnt. Its niiice.
Ben and Ben are amazing. SO is Franke. Ari has a hand in awesomeness as well.
Trey just sleeps.
Zack's now reading the book.. must use every ounce of self control not to ruin too much for him
just so you guys know
Snape Killed Dumbledore.
haha.
that would be an exspoiler. |
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| uhh sure |
[Jul. 19th, 2007|03:47 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | +/- Let's build a Fire | ] |
went fishing today. me and mommy caught a catfish. he shall be delicious.
Frenchman caught a fish too, but not as big as ours :P We win.
I love the fact that I could go fishing everyday. Its nice..
I love walking in the rain here... its even nicer.
Still sitting inside my house I always feel on the verge of tears lately.. wierd, but whatever.
Zack comes back monday. monday monday monday. But I can't call him. Or anyone that doesn't have like Cingular at&t untill august2nd. because my stepdad is a bastard. basically.
I come to baton rouge the weekend. I will try to see as many people as I can. I go there friday and come back sunday.
Sunday's Brett's birthday.. I should get him out of his house.
BUt after zack gets back monday he leaves tuesday. Then comes back friday. Friday I'll probably be in Baton Rouge... so that's crap.
I planned to be in BAton ROuge on that friday. crap crap crap. I just realized that. I'm a dummy.
WHo wants to go fishing?
it'll be delicious.
I love the mud out here in between my toes. This is why Zack calls me a country girl. but I like walking down city blocks too much.. haha.
I love my cat.
I'd be all lonely without her.
I live past the middle of nowhere.
methinks it might rain soon.. I think I might play in it. that would be quite delightful. |
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